I get asked a lot, "If you're seeing a therapist, why aren't you feeling better?" Often the answer is the one I've got: A therapist does not "cheer you up" or tell you what to do. It's NOT a simple A-B-C question, walk out of the office and everything's fine affair. A good therapist helps you to learn the deep rooted reasons for your depression and the roots of your destructive behavior. Most people can't face that; they'd rather go to the grave in denial. The pain of facing the causes can be horrible. Only a brave person can. We are in the minority. I am thunderstruck to discover the facts of my own past, and all the years I've lost misdirecting pain. But I found it much more frightening to be tortured by psychic pain NOT KNOWING THE CAUSE OF IT. Unable to get out of bed or simply overwhelmed, etc. Now that I know more about mine, life is much less frightening, and I have greater control over it. I know what I'm doing. Am I happy? Maybe 50% of the time. Do I ever expect to be 90% happy? No. But now at least I know the reasons WHY and don't end up switching off half my brain and pointlessly chasing a false "happiness" for the rest of my days. I am now fully conscious.
COPYRIGHT 2015 BY MILTON KNIGHT
A musical short featuring Yvonne ("Lily Munster") De Carlo.